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haha. i cant believe you. thats all
i knew it was gonna happen. it always does.

Let's play who knows James Michel

Ok people think they know how I feel, when I feel, and what I feel. when I talk about the butterflies I feel as though I'm making them. When I'm talking about the new girl I like i feel as though i actually like her. When I blog you people take what I say out of context and it makes me upset. If you really get to know me you'll know I'm pretty complex.

How do you know

How do you know if what you feel is real. Are your feelings real or are you just telling yourself that they are to make you feel better. Are you head over heals for her, butterflies in the stomach, or are you just working yourself up so much that you think they are real. Believe me I have had so many times I've doubted my feelings. *Get this* Soooo....I like this girl. I've know her for about 1 1/2 years, met her over the summer. I like her. Cool. I've liked people before. But here's the thing, all the other times I said I liked a girl then I like this girl. When I talked about one of the girls I liked it was always "gawd I've got butterflies in my stomach she makes me feel weird". Did I do that to myself because I got worked up over liking someone. <> See that's the funny thing about how my brain works. It wants to make things seem real that aren't and visa versa. I wish there was a sign, ya know like something that proves the feelings are true. I like this girl and I have for a little while. I really don't feel much, no butterflies, just ya know....feeling. Weird. I hate the heart/feelings and their confusing ways. Darn you!!!

Hey.

Im ok. Im back out of the hospital. School tomorrow. Some pain. I had a severe concussion lots of sprains and pulls, and tons of bruising. Fun

Thanks

This is just a shout out post to all my readers. Thanks to Karl I was able to install Google analytics which allows me to see how many visits I get and where there come from. Most are from right here in NY aka B-spa, B-lake, Mechanicville, Cohose, Newtonville, and Lathem. I'm surprised though because I have hits From Texas and Illinois. Thanks for reading. I'm happy.

Another year, another resolution

1. Get back into shape. I start tennis in March, so I better start now.
2. Cut back on swearing. I really need to.
3. Make new friends. People i don't know I should get to know.
4. Travel to a new place. I want to travel far out of the country. Few of us have plans for France this summer.
5. Get better at swing.

That's it for now. I better get started